Though we have forged through good times and through bad
You always kept a smile on your face
And when this world would try to drag me to the ground
I find strength in those days

well, don't call me by my full name.
so you know, all of this is temporary.
i can't be honest, even with myself.
did you ever wish you were someone else?

I got your love letters, I threw them all away
And I hear you think that I'm crazy
I'm driving 95, And I'm driving you away
And I shine a little more lately.

So plug your ears & make excuses;
Block out who you see in the mirror.
But the truth is;;
you can’t escape yourself.

And I'm screaming every hurtful word that I can think of.
And whats killing me is that they don't hurt you at all.
Because you don't care what I say, you never have.

I'm hurting everybody,
i'm hurting myself.
I'm desperate.
So what do you do when it all
comes down on you?
Do you run and hide or
face the truth?

missing someone isn't about
how long it's been since you've seen them last.
or the amount of time since you've talked.
it's about that very moment
when you're doing something, and you wish,
you wish that they were right there with you.

you talk to me, and i remember
how every word lingered on your lips for hours.
I close my eyes, and try to remember
the way you felt next to me days after you've gone.
and somehow, i know that years from now
thoughts of you; will still keep me awake

The only thing that hurts me more then knowing I lost a love that never really was with me, is living with the knowledge that I've lost you as a friend.

"I can stop anytime I want" - famous last words that come back to haunt you.

It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in a bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses. - Colette

I always avoided fights.
I make jokes instead.
I tell people what they want to hear in order to avoid a confrontation.
I pretend to want things I don't want and I pretend not to want things I do want.
No one gets hurt.
Except me.
The lines are so crossed and blurred at the point that I don't know what I want.
I just know I want it to be e.a.s.y

I finally figured out that you're not coming back, and I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith, how did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you and the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger, could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.

You'll be hurting in a way you can't explain.
And all those pretty things you love will look so vain.
The laughing crowd is such a hopeless sound
When loneliness comes crashing down

When the tables are turned and so are their back, forget their names and faces, because they already forgot yours.

forget my name and forget my face;
hope you get on a plane and forget this place
so i never have to deal with you again

so go jump off a cliff,
i'm done with caring.
so pack up your stuff and leave.
get out of my face,
get out of the state.

No matter how close we are, the distance between us is miles.

So here's to your heart, here's to your name, here's to the stone that you broke once again. You've crossed every line, worn out your stay. This is the last chapter of our fading days.

The biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone
who you once had the time of your life with.

The only people that could hurt you
are the ones that you love, because
if it wasn't love; you wouldn't care.

some people can't believe in themselves
until someone else believes in them first.

brace yourself and watch your back
it's time I bury this hatchet so deep inside your chest
you'll wish you never asked for it

drinking is cheating.
it's dizzy dreaming, and far too easy.
sober up and learn to feel the burn.

Drastic times don't call for drastic measures
it calls for sitting down, shutting the hell up,
and thinking things through before you fuck it up more

Fairytales are nothing but lies
Happily ever afters aren't true
I learned that from the best
I learned that from you

when the truth is ugly, people try to keep it hidden
because they know if revealed, the damage it will do,
so they conceal it within sturdy walls,
or they place it behind closed doors,
or they obscure it with clever disguises;
but truth, no matter how ugly, always emerges,
and someone we care about always ends up getting hurt,
and someone else will reveal their pain,
and that's the ugliest truth of all.

if you have taught me anything, its how
to hold back tears and act like i don't care

Some People Are Runners.
Some People Are Doers.
Runners wish they could do.
And sometimes;;;doers wish they could just run.

I will disappoint you.
I am everything I wish I wasn't,
and nothing I say I am

I'm careless & I’m cruel
but I’m still easily bruised.
I’m tired of lying about it.
I’m not bullet proof

& I'm screaming through
the troubles that the drugs don't solve

Close your eyes. Fall asleep.
Cry the pain away. Sadly, when you wake up
it'll still hurt the next day

The wounds will heal,
And the pain will subside.
And the scars will go away,
That you tried so hard to hide.
But the memories will never fade.
And the proof always show.
The lines upon my face,
Tell all you need to know

I want you to be free,
don’t worry about me,
& just like the movies,
we'll play out our last scene,
you wont cry, I wont scream

Cut your wrist. Fake a smile.
Make a fist. Think awhile

There's a sick little suicide
in all that we do

I hope you choke
on every pill

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

& if you were choking, you know
I wouldn’t even flinch. I wouldn’t
dare to move a muscle, for it would
be a magical sight. maybe even
a Kodak moment. after all, you
always were the flawless one

Sometimes, you only forgive someone because you can't stand not having them in your life.

I can hear you whisper and you can't even hear me scream.

But now
I just miss you the most when I lie awake at night &
think of all the times we spent with each other,
because those were some of the best and worst times of my life.
And you were my best friend

you remember the things you survived
more than the things you enjoyed.

You're the definition of the absolute best & you're the
reason I get through life when it's a total mess.

and i stand there and i wonder what i am doing
what i should do, and i don't know what to do
i don't know whether to take, to hold, to stay
to walk away and i think that is it- that is everything

The past did affect the present & the future, in the ways you could see & a million ones you couldn’t. Time wasn’t a thing you could
divide easily; there was no defined middle or beginning or end. I could pretend to leave the past behind, but it still would not leave me.

I've always had a problem separating the past from the present.

I think that's what's wrong with the world;
No one says what they feel,
They always hold it inside.
They're sad, but they don't cry.
They're happy, but they don't dance or sing.
They're angry, but they don't scream.
Because if they do, they feel ashamed.
And that's the worst feeling in the world.
So everyone walks with their heads down.
And no one sees how beautiful the sky is.

hey thanks, thanks for that summer.
it's cold where you're going
I hope that you're hearts always warm.
I gave you the best, the best that I had.

I'm sick of second chances, cigarettes turn to ashes. I'm standing under street signs to know the places I've been my whole life. I watch the hours pass us, another one burns to ashes. I'm waiting for your phone call, to come and save me so you can break my fall.

and you, you are the most competitive,
most guarded, most stubborn person i have ever met.
and i love you.
what the hell is the matter with you that you won't just let me?
_grey's anatomy

I've been trying not to love you, I've been putting up a fight. I've been barely holding on, & letting go with all my might. There's a part of me that's empty, I know only love can fill. I'm afraid I'll never fill it, & scared to death I will

real loss occurs only when you lose something
that you love more than yourself.

Faith.
You give it to the people you love.
But the people who really deserve it
are the ones who came through even when
you don't love them enough.

i flipped up the cards and saw hearts. i folded said i don't deal with love

I think it happens to everyone as they grow up.
You find out who you are and what you want.
And then you realize the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do.
So, you keep the wonderful memories.
But you find yourself moving on.

Do you hold the phone when you're alone
Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear
And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone
I'll be there in your dreams and in this song

I see your face at night in every dream I dream.
I see a message, please tell me what it means.
If I had your number, I'd call you on the phone.
But your voice wouldn't be enough, I'd be better left alone.

i don`t have friends ; i have enemies.
so if you roll with me, you`re considered
family.

Caution: I may have the sudden urge to kiss you.
Be prepared.

if you think i'm a bitch now
wait until i'm pissed off

smile for the camera,
you look so pretty pretending
nothings wrong.

love isn't a crime. so let it out.
scream his name.

love all. trust few. do wrong to no one.

"i can stop anytime i want to." famous last words that came back to haunt you.

you break a persons trust;
you break everything you've built with them

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away
that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose,
teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who
you want to become. You never know who these people may be - a
roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a
complete stranger - but when you lock eyes with them, you know
at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Go and try; you'll never break me.
We want it all; we wanna play this part.
I won't explain, or say I'm sorry.
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar.
Give a cheer, for all the broken. Listen here, because it's who we are.

when i was leaving his house, i said
"i love you" and he said the same. i said
"call me when you miss me" he smiled
and kissed me. and as i walked towards
my car, my phone rang

THINK before you piss off
a girl because she knows where
it hurts the most

Come on, honey, hang up the phone.
Quit stuttering & cursing; act like a man.
Come on over & break my heart in person.

So basically, I’m gonna go
all third grader on your ass &
DOUBLE DOG DARE
you to fall in love with me

It's so easy to say, "i hate you"
But it's so hard to mean it.

Anytime you need someone,
I'll be there. Wanna know why?
Because we've been through it all.
Guys, family, friends, school.
Everything. And because of this,
Anytime you call, I'll run to where you are.
You are my best friend; the one I can trust.
And it's the hard times that make me so
Grateful because I have you right beside me.

F.E.A.R.
fuck everything && run

i hope you know that you were my best friend
tonight i said goodbye, but i should have said more.
thanks for the best time of my life
all i want is for you to know me agian,
for me to be in your life. and even if it can't
happen right now, i would just like to know
that i'm not blocked from your memory

overdosing on any drug you can find
just to forget most of your memories
just to forget what your face looks like
just to forget how perfect you really are
just to forget how much I want you and can't have you

There is a point in life when you realize you don't need everyone.
Not everyone's pain.
Not their kindness.
And definitely not them.
You're better off without them.

We either make ourselves miserable
or we make ourselves strong. The
amount of work is the same.
Pain is inevitable
Suffering is optional
Some pursue happiness
others create it

as far as i'm concerned,
your just another picture
to burn..

here's to the nights we'd kill to get back,
the moments that haunt our dreams.
here's to the people forever loved,
who make our hearts want to scream.

I would like to visit you for a while get away
and out of this city, maybe I shouldn't have called but
someone had to be the first to break
we can go sit on your back porch, relax,
talk about anything.
it doesn't matter, i'll be courageous
if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

I don't know who you are
you're not who you used to be.
I remember when you used to look at me differently,
now you don't talk to me, boy you can't even see
I miss who you really are
I can't see how you've gone this far

It's been a long time since you dared to show your face again
It's been a while since you pretended, you defended,
every damn mistake that you have made.

Love isn't only about treating one respectfully. Love is when you see an imperfect person perfectly. When I make one right, another becomes wrong. Picture perfect ain't as easy as it sounds.

Friendship is more than just a phone call or a birthday present every year.
It's more than just a ride to the mall or a study partner.
It's a person who is by your side and sticks with you
just when you feel you're on your own.

Don't waste your time with people
who don't make you feel alive.

I know for a fact that people change.
I know that people have to do things to help others.
I know that the world can't always be the same.
But I don't know why you did what you did,
and how come you never said sorry ?

a person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem, as bad or as good, as vulnerable or as strong, as sweet or as fiesty. we are thickly layered, page lying upon page, behind simple covers. and love- it is not the book itself,
but the binding. it can rip us apart or hold us together.

Almost everyone you know,
Without exception,
Has their heart all wrapped around someone who'll never love them back

The only truly painful
goodbyes are the ones that are
never said and never explained.

But when this is over and done with and we walk away
There should be no doubts

You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for me
Sometimes I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

I drowned all my dreams in a bottle of vodka. Bitter & stinging, I died here tonight.

My finger tips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation, and i know that i should let go, but i can't.

You're trying your best not to let yourself go cold, so cold. Now you think about the things you thought you wanted to say, but when you open up your mouth it don't come out that way. Are you really gonna throw your heart away?

The truth? I tried as hard as I could.
I took as much as I could take.
I put up with all I could and
it still wasn't enough.

But some emotions don’t make a lot of noise.
It’s hard to hear pride.
Caring is very faint, like a heartbeat.
And pure love, why, some days it’s so quiet
you don’t even know it’s there.

I may only be able to count my
good friends on my fingers,
and that doesn't say a lot about me,
but it says everything about them.

It brings out the worst in me when you're not around.
I miss the sound of your voice, the silence seems so loud.
'Cause there's no one else since I found you.

I think I knew it wouldn't be fine, deep down, I just didn't want to admit it to myself

What is the big fuss about true love? Fuck true love; it's overrated. Fuck finding it, fuck questioning it, fuck obsessing over it. Love is love and the more complex you make it, the more complicated you make it for yourselves to love each other.

you piss me off. you piss me off a lot. I can't even tell you how many times I've wanted to knock some sense into that pretty little head of yours. you push me to my limits, maybe even farther. but this is what makes me so absolutely crazy about you. does that make any sense, any at all?

True friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient; sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence, a time to let go & allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny, & a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.

It's difficult
watching someone change
right in front of you,
but the hardest part is
remembering who they used to be.

And does it make you sad
To find yourself alone
And does it make you mad
To find that I have grown
I'll bet it hurts so bad
To see the strength that I have shown.

The most painful, and worst possible types of goodbyes
are the ones that are never said, or never even explained.

The words 'I love you' and 'I miss you' no longer have a meaning. They are used so often & apply to just anyone. People usually remember the moments & actions that people take to show the meaning of 'I love you.' Words are just there to illustrate what is happening; the true meaning is in the actions.

Fate decides who walks into your life,
but you decide who you let stay,
who you let walk away,
& who you refuse to let walk out.

Sometimes when I look at my old pictures,
I remember how happy I looked but then
memories flashed back about how I faked all those smiles.

You bite your lip; you keep pretending
that you're made of stone.
You never let it show, but darling,
everybody knows

bite your lip. brace yourself.
you're not ready for this.
you can't handle it.

it hurts to realize that the people you
thought you’d love forever don’t love
you as much as you thought they did and they
can do without you as if they never knew you at all

Is this what you want
No words at all
Silent but sure of the things that you lost
Take all your words
To cover your lies
Secrets won't coat all your tears and your cries

I'm taking it in
I'm holding it back
I'm filling my lungs with the knife in my back
But you kept going on just to make me feel like this
Now that it's over
I won't feel the same
A broken frame with our picture is wasted
I've thrown it away

with friendship; it doesn’t matter how long
you’ve known each other or how many fights
you got into.. what matters is who said
" I’ll be here for you " and proved it.

When you need people to be there for you, they're not; they're like a million miles away. And when you think someone is totally reliable and trust worthy and you've built your whole life around them, then it turns out they were never that person.

Someone tell me how I'm supposed to feel.
Grab me by my wrists and SCREAM in my face.
Slap me hard to prove that I'm still real.
Because darling, I've forgotten I'm alive.
And you're still killing me

Well the lipstick stains on my sheets
Remind me of those lies
Broken promises that shine through your eyes
I swear your running away.

You come off strong,
And you’re expected to be more than what they said you were
You come off strong but I think you're hiding so much more from me.
How many walls do I have to break to get to you?

I keep a note that I wrote on a taxi receipt
It says, "Don't listen to anybody other than me"
I hit the big time for a nominal fee
But you lose a friend in the end for every dream that you see come true

And i don't wanna see you cry
but i don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so:
how do you let it go when you just don't know
what's on the other side of the door that you're walking out?

She's got a past full of secrets && a clock
on her feelings back from the days when she used to have wings.

If there's just one piece of advice I can give you, it's this -
when there's something you really want, fight for it,
don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems.
And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now,
you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot.
Because the best things in life, they don't come free.

& sometimes i put myself in danger,
just to see who cares enough to stop me.

Most people are stronger than they know.
They just don't believe in themselves.

Time does heal all wounds but even time will leave scars

breaking up with a boyfriend
is a million times easier than
breaking up with a best friend

Lay off the coffee, and the Kafka and the coughing.
Lay off the means to the ends and mean what you say more often.
Lay off the, laying off the smiling, the trying.
Lay in me, lay on me, lay on me

you asked me if i've always been this way,
and i'll tell you the truth, it's the way i was raised.
I spent my days learning to support myself.

When we were little we had dreams
of being big rockstars & doctors.
Now life has changed &
those dreams have faded ;;
now we're just hoping we make it.

It's amazing how you can keep so much bottled up
inside of you and you can just walk around and nobody
has any idea.

she's not like that now. she knows
better. she knows now that people lie
& promises can be broken as quick as they
are made. she understands that she might
never be loved & too quickly, good
things fly in front of your eyes before
you can reach out & grab them. she
knows that you can't change or help
time, so every now & then, it'll just run out.
there isn't a place for everyone in the
world, so if you're standing alone for a while,
that's why. not everything in life comes
easy, but when you work the hardest, that's
when it's your best. you can't always expect
people to care & even when your best
friends stab you in the front, don't think
for a minute they didn't already aim for
your back. they missed for a reason. she
has found out too soon, that in the end, you are
your own best friend. everyone will be
broken at some point in their life, &
more often then not. it's gonna hurt like hell,
but you can't stop it. you can't change
your own fate. some things are meant to be
& all the pain you go through will end
up resulting in something huge. you
don't know what it is & when it happens,
it'll hit you like a ton of bricks. at some
point, when you have experienced everything
you can, the words "life" & "risk" won't mean
anything to you anymore. but don't try &
change that. stuff like that is meant to
happen. over time, certain things no longer
have an affect on you, & that happens cause
that's the way its suppose to be. but
you'll learn all that later in life when
little things like a sunrise or a spring rain
start to matter. but it might catch you off guard
& happen sooner. i mean, ask her. she knows

to see you suffering
oh my god i think its killing me
and these are you're last words "I'm sorry"
right before my eyes
i just cant believe that this is goodbye
if this is the last time
i've never been so terrified
if this is the last time
i'll never look into your eyes

we're friends ; real friends. and that means,
no matter how long it takes, when you finally
decide to look back, i`ll still be here.
- Grey's Anatomy

more people would learn
from their mistakes
if they weren't so busy
denying them

Sometimes it's easier to act like you don't care,
than to admit that it's killing you

the easiest way to not get hurt
is to not care. but thats the
hardest thing to do

why is it that at all funerals people cry?
don't they know your not there because someone
died. your there because someone lived.

and sometimes i just get so god damn sick of myself; that the only thing to do is leave as much of my stomach as i can in the bathroom.

you've lied like a lawyer,
but don't deny it when you're face to face
with demons dancing off mirror images
reflecting all that you wanted

we're best friends. we have marker fights,
chasing each other around the room.
you never want to give us paint for an actual project,
because it will all end up on us. we can never concentrate
on anything when we're together, and its probably a
bad idea to give us something complicated to do.
we laugh about absolutely nothing, and get in trouble
all the time. but all of this, its what makes us best friends.

I will always hold your hand through the hard times. Don't be ashamed to cry,
I will always be there to wipe your tears. Don't hesitate to come to me with
your problems, cause I will always be there to listen & help.
Remember that I will always be there for you.

I'm sorry I've been so detached lately,
And that I can't even seem to find what to say.
I have all these thoughts inside my mind,
But I know you don't have time enough to stay.
I'll just continue thinking about this forever,
Even though you will never know...
And you will leave me one day and never come back.
But you won't know how much you meant to me.

We were in the graveyard, shovel in hand and digging.
Took one step to the hole, realized it wasn't our time to go.
We still had a lot of work, work to do.
We took cement and filled up that grave again, just like new.

So assuming that this weekend there's a part of me that's thinking of coming up to join you. You know I sure wouldn't want to.. Ruin all your chances on your one night stand romances..Doing tequila shots, I always loved you but it was never enough.

I`m at a stage in my life where I`m
having a hard time caring about things.
Fortunately, I don`t care.

I imagine one of the reasons
people cling to their hates so stubbornly
is because they sense,
once hate is gone,
they will be forced to deal with pain

& sometimes it comes to the point where you just don't
know who to trust..because the people you expected the
most out of..you got the least.

When someone does something to hurt you, you fight to stop them getting to you. But when it's you hurting yourself, there's nothing to fight for. It's easy to give up.

Beauty is a curse on the world.
it keeps us from seeing who the real monsters are.

change is never easy.
you fight to hold on,
you fight to let go.

everyone smiles with that
invisible gun to their head.

friends are the ones that tell us
the things that we cant tell ourselves.

sometimes life ain't so easy
and if we don't go through life together
i just want you to know, right here, right now..
i love you. i always have. i'll never stop
and i'll never leave you.

it’s the loneliest feeling in the world; to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. to have everyone look at you and say, "what’s wrong with her?" I know what it feels like. walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. and you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away.

you closed your eyes ; that was the difference. Sometimes you can`t believe what you see you have to believe what you feel & if you`re ever going to have people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too even when your in the dark ; even when you`re falling

i think everyonee has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time. whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. the world would stop turning & people would stop changing. because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky.
You can hide underneath me &
come out at night. When I turn jet
black just to show off your light; I
live to let you shine.

he was different.
he never said "i want to be friends"
after he said goodbye. it was like he knew,
he knew that he had broken my heart bad enough
when he saw my tears fall. he knew me well enough
that he just knew what to say. and when he
spoke, he looked me in the eyes and said,
"i hope you talk to me again someday."

If it’s easier to cry,
Then let go.
because you will see through tear soaked eyes
that I am here for you

i can't listen to my favorite songs anymore.
because each drum beat is a massacre,
each keystroke is a regret,
and each chord is a memory of you.

I'm wearing thin wearing out becoming weak
Holding hands with this rouge she's my self-destructive
Bleeding disease the things that makes it hard to breathe
But if I shoved you far away
This addict just starved again asphyxiated

Don't search, just see. Don't speak, just hear. Don't hesitate, just act. Don't be scared, just love.

True friendship isn`t about being there
when it`s convenient;
it`s about being there when it`s not.

Everytime I think of you, I have to remind myself
that if you wanted to talk to me, you would

And so I lift my chin and the show goes on,
the sky is listening, the stars all sing along,
but you're not there anymore,
and I just can't care anymore

just when it's getting good
i slowly start to freeze
just when it's feeling real I put my heart to sleep
it's the memory I can see
then this fear comes over me
understand that I don't mean to push you away from me

Now I'm not made for this,
The truth that she would not admit
The greatest falling stars are in her eyes,
Not in her lies.

cause our days were numbered by
nights on too many rooftops. they say
we're wasting our lives, oh at least we
know that if we die, we lived with passion.

& as much as you hate to admit it,
theres an end to every friendship

she felt far from okay, but
sometimes the biggest lies slip
out easier than the truth

Please don't act like you care. You can't care.
I know you don't. You've watched me destroy
myself for too long now. If you really cared; you
would have tried to stop it by now

Sometimes, I catch myself wondering where you are, and how you're doing.
And to be honest it pisses me off.
But I don't think I’ll ever be able to let go of you completely

It's four in the morning
I'm naked and staring at the wall
In my lonely apartment room
And I'll swear to your beauty
I'm sorry that I'm so messed up
Don't hate me
When I'm under the ground

sometimes its easier for me to PRETEND
rather than face my feelings. sometimes
its EASIER to try to make it alone rather
than risk gettin` HURT again. sometimes
its easier to be NUMB towards certain people
so i don't let them get too close. sometimes
i`m scared, but when i act NUMB towards you--*
it doesn't mean i don`t CARE... it means i care TOO MUCH

It's a good year for a murder
She's praying to Jesus, she's pulling the trigger
There's no tears, cause he's not here
She washes her hands, and she fixes the dinner
But soon they'll be coming to rush her away
No one's so sure if her crime had a reason.

I've got some problems
but we've got 10 dollars;
that's enough to get us wasted before the night is over.
These past five days I've been completely sober.
But tonight I'm getting ripped wide open.

my phone lies beside me as i sleep
just in case you change your mind,
just in case you want to talk.

one more breath.
it's real and it hurts.
but you can't change it.
don't let 'em see you down.

i miss the way you sing so low
so i can't hear your voice over the radio in my car,
but you knew every word you sang.
you know just the right thing to say
when the distance rips us farther and farther and farther away.
i'll see you soon.

And I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

so hold me close but don't get too comfortable
cause this might be the last time you hear my voice
well is this goodbye? or is it goodnight?
I'll promise to call if you promise not to cry.

I Remember Our First Fight
Your Skeletons Were All Up Over You
I Can Still Taste That Night
When You Told Me You'd Been Beat Up And Abused
You'd Had It All, Bruised Mouths Don't Die
It's Not Your Fault, It Was Never Your Fault
That Evil World For An Innocent Girl
It's Not Your Fault, It Was Never Your Fault.

She wraps her tragic moments tightly around her neck
Then she hangs herself with them as I try to disconnect
Cause she wants to choke on her life again
Breathing it in like a deadly poison.

You said I was just like glass. Am I that easy to read?
Am I that transparent? What makes you able
to understand me more than anyone else? If you really know
what is going on inside my head, then why don't you save me?
The fact of the matter is you really don't know,or you really don't care.

"you couldn't forget it if you tried,"
he said before walking away.
and he's right.
and i don't know if i hate him
or love him for that.

distance doesn't ruin a relationship.
you don't have to see a person everyday,
to be in love.

I could ask myself a thousand times a night
Why am I at fault for someone else's lies
And I could ask myself a thousand times but why
Why do I blame my self.

there comes a time when we
have to stop loving someone;
not because that person started
hating us.. but because we
finally realized that they would be
happier if we let them go.

i care about you, i really do
and it pains me to look at you
and question if we're both
just living a lie

& I'm not your ex-girlfriend,
it's more like I'm the best
thing you ever let go

i'll give it up this time again,
some things are better left unsaid and
all i have are lasting dreams.
our words spoke more this time it seems
and i can't sleep without you.

& how do you say
goodbye to everything
you have spent your entire
life trying to hold on to

Losing your first love
Its like waking up,
from an overdose,
&& realizing your still alive

If you're going to pressure me to
do something, I'm going to do the
opposite. So if you tell me to get
skinny, I'm probably going to get
fat just to piss you off.
- Kelly Clarkson

there have been lots of ups & downs,
but ultimately, at the end of the day, thats
what makes you who you are. we all know
how to laugh, we all know how to cry, & we
all know how to love back. we all know
heartbreak, but the world keeps moving, &
we keep moving along with it. & everything we
experience helps us realize how beautiful life really is..

he showed me that you can find good in anybody
if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt.
sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they
surprise you, but you never really get to know them
until you listen to what's in their heart.

Because we are what we are
& sometimes that's not enough.

The sky's screaming in the dark,
setting off the car alarms.
So, take it as a warning sign or
maybe just for peace of mind:
When you're scratching at your scars,
I'll remember who you are.

the feelings that are the most painful, are the ones that
nobody can explain, no quote could describe, & no
tears or smiles could make go away. they're the ones
that hurt the deepest. the ones that last the longest
& take forever to forget

I had not a thought
Of parking lots
And me in the car
With the doors all locked
I'm staring ahead
Everyone's dead
I'm under the pain in between my ribs

It seems like the simplest concept ::
just push them all away and you'll never get hurt.
However, the simplest is not always the most effective.
Someday, somebody is going to find their way in
and then they are going to leave you on your knees.

If one day, you notice we haven't talked in awhile,
it's not because I don't care anymore,
It's because you pushed me away.

is it wrong to assume that you missed me?
because the look in your eyes says
that you're dying to kiss me.
the touch of your lips is tasteful and forgiving.
you're a part of the past that I don't mind reliving

rain loves the flowers for a drop at a time
when they collide
petals love the dirt and make them strong
when flowers die
dirt tries to love everything
but it's only dirt.
just because it hurts
don't mean that it's love

and if i'm going down, i'm going down with style
you won't hear me surrender, you won't hear me confess
because you've left me with nothing, but i've worked with less.

nothing ever changed but you
every dream civered in dents
love can't fly tonight
couples will rest
i'll be sleepless

i'll put some words in bold, and some in italics, and when you read them you can emphasize whichever part you want to emphasize. when you are done, you will have read some quote that is supposed to change your life or give you new purpose. everyone else has said something smart before, and appartently smart things from other people are supposed to mean more than your own opinions, as smart or stupid as they may be. this new change or purpose you are supposed to feel will not come from my quotes, or my profiles. when you are done reading my quote, you will honestly have an opinion of the way society works that differs from everyone else............... until they read this too.
;; Ryan Mentock

you can't hide being in love
you wear it on your sleeve sweetheart..

here is to the starry
nights and careless freedom,
to glowing smiles and flushed cheeks;
of laughter that heals you deep inside

Don't you breathe
Something happened, that I never understood
You can't leave
Every second, dripping off my fingertips
Wage your war
Another soldier, says he's not afraid to die
Well I am scared
In slow motion, the blast is beautiful
Doors slam shut

i know i'll see you again
whether far or soon
but i need you to know that i care
and i miss you.

Infatuations, summer substance, brought you to an end.
Your fascination with Audrey Hepburn carried you away.
Far away, far away, far away. You'll never be the same.

come up with five things,
I ever did wrong .
Then, I’ll take back everything I ever said.
write it down and mail it to my new address
it's located so far from you
I’m glad we, I’m glad we
i'm glad we fell apart

the mind has so many memories
can you remember what i look like when i cry?

In your tears and
in your blood, in your fire and
in your flood,
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing,
"I wouldn't change a single thing."

this rush is unforgiving
but i let the buzz cleanse the soul
with arms stretched out
just accept the loss of control

They're saying nothing
That makes the fight a blur
Say we're something that no one wanted to hear
They know that everything is wrong

It wasn't supposed to be this way. The artists, and the scientists, and the poets...none of them fit in at seventeen. You're supposed to get past it. Adults, they see kids killing kids and they know its a tragedy because they used to be those kids. The bullies and the beaten and the loners. You're supposed to get past it. You're supposed to live long enough to take it back. Just take it all back

Life isn’t about living and then dying; it's about how many lives you can change while you're living, and then how many change after you're gone.

torn up photos and lonely nights
cursing, crying and drawn out fights
make up sex and a brand new start
broken promises for broken hearts

we will sing pretty songs about love
and we will fight if that's what it takes
and we won't back down.
no we won't shut our eyes and go to sleep
we will write all over your walls
and we will dance to no music at all
we will do what it takes to get through to you

it's cold tonight, the leaves scattered on the ground
i miss the seasons, and the comfort of your smile

theres a little truth in every jk.
there a little curiosity in every jw.
theres a little knowledge in every idk.
theres a little emotion in every idc.

Your friends are your release.
They're who you have the most fun with,
&& when the going gets tough
those people turn around & suddenly
they're not just making you laugh,
they're being this rock & giving you all their advice,
even though you're so much your own person.
If you dissect yourself, I guarantee you,
your friends are in there, and their influence is incredible.

You're the only one that wore your seatbelt
We're the only ones that cried
Catastrophic accidents
You're the only one that died.

Micro waves me insane
A Blaine cuts in your brain
To sounds like a fork on a plate
Blackboard scratched with hate

surround yourself with people
who are only going to lift you higher

Just be who you are, wait your turn, don't push
be beautiful, be graceful, if you're gonna get angry,
be angry behind closed doors. don't ever let them
see you sweat but just hold your head up no matter
what & don't ever let anyone stomp you out

once you lose yourself, you have two choices:;
find the person you used to be,
or lose that person completely.

no school book will EVER teach you how to love yourself,
no teacher will ever tell you how to heal,
and no class can help you to learn how to brush yourself off and try again

I don't have a clue why
people say 'friends before love'
because when it comes to my friends..
Well.. that's the strongest love there is.

Even in laughter, the heart can be in pain

we are all a little damaged.
some of us hide it better than others,
but on some level we are all torn up.
we take it out on others and
beat through life carrying it all and we will
end up damaging someone else.
and most of the time we won't even notice
or bother to care, because we are busy
with our little disaster that we all call life.

i won't say a word if you won't either tonight
you can stand there all evening if you'd like
but the looks you're gonna throw my way won't make me any less conviced
you're a smalltown girl with a big mouth, and i'm through with this.

we sat in your car on that chilly fall night,
talking about how much i've grown up,
and how much you've lost yourself.

look at you, a well dressed hypocrite
you sing all the songs you hated when you were a kid
you know the ones you never knew the words to
and that's alright, 'cause you're all grown up
but just because you can spell love,
doesn't mean you should say it so much

the funny thing is,
nobody really ever knows how much
anybody else is hurting.
we could be standing next to somebody
who is completely broken,
& we wouldn't even know.

tell me what to do & ill tell you off.
say i'm not worth it & watch where i end up.
call me a bitch & ill show you one.
screw me over & ill do it to you twice as bad.
call me crazy, but you really have no idea

Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have.
Or what group you hang out with.
It's not about if you have plans this weekend
or if you're spending it alone.
It's not about who you're going out with,
or how many people you've gone out with.
It's not about how many people you kissed,
how far you've gone,
or if you've kissed no one at all.
It isn't about where you live &; go to school.
About how beautiful or ugly you are,
how others see you.
It doesn't matter what clothes you wear,
the purses you own, the make-up.
It doesn't matter what kind of music you listen to,
or if your hair is black, red, brown or blonde.
It doesn't matter how light or dark your skin is.
It's not about what grades you get,
how smart you are,
how smart other people think you are,
or even how smart a standardized test says you are.
It's not about how good or bad you are at "your sport".
It's not about trying to represent our whole being,
our whole life on the internet or a piece of paper.
It's not about getting accepted.
life is about who you love and who you hurt,
it's about what makes you happy or unhappy, on purpose.
It's about how you see yourself.
It's about keeping or betraying trust.
It's about getting and giving second chances.
It's about the things you say and the things you mean
every thing inspiring and everything hurtful.
What your judgements are and why,
and who your judgments are spread to.
It's about anger jealousy fear ignorance and revenge.
It's about starting rumors and believing gossip.
It's about having love in your life and being able to admit it.
It's about sharing how you feel and why but mostly...
It's about using your life to touch another's
in such a way that could have NEVER occurred alone

Those who really love you don't mean to hurt you, and if they do, you can see it in their eyes that they're hurting, too

Theres always gunna be those two people in your life
that you'll never forget..
Your first love ;; & the first to break your heart
..Ill remember you as both..

she’s got beautiful hazel eyes, gorgeous brunette.
a waist size that’ll make you jealous, and she doesn’t
believe in rubbing it in your face.
she’s classy, unlike other girls.
she knows herself and she knows she’s not perfect
but she spends her time having fun,
and that’s what makes her better.

in life you don't get the people you want
.. you get the people you need

friends are the ones that prove if
you had nothing else in the world
except them .. you'd still have it all.

And I'm blasting my music so
I won't hear my thoughts,
but it's stupid because the lyrics just remind me
of what I'm trying to forget.
how did you manage to get all these
people to sing about you?

I'm blocking everything out again
because it's so much easier than feeling.

i push people away who start to love me
because i know that if they stopped
loving me, it would kill me.

your friends can hurt you
worse than any of your enemies could

She's one of those girls that has tons
of make-up. She loads it on because
she hates who she is. She can laugh
at anything, because it's easier to
fake it then actually mean it. She'll tell
you that she's perfectly fine when she's
falling apart inside and she just wants
someone to reach out and say
"you're not okay."

She whispered 'I wanna die'
in an empty room
& the scream of 'I wanna be saved'
echoed all around her

this is why you should never
get your hopes up. this is why you
should see the glass as half empty.
so when the whole thing spills, you
aren't as devastated.

you know someone is a true friend when,
you are about to break down &cry, but
they will say the stupidest, most random thing
just to see you smile.

It makes me sick, to know that one day
You’ll buy a shirt from my band
Because it's the latest trend
Your belt buckle says you're hard
But you're only hard when you're not alone
Let me take this moment to
break the trust with the ones that you love.

Everytime is the last time, until
the next time rolls around.
I'll trade lonely for regret,
it's easier to drown.

The clock has drained your life away and you'll never get it back again
Your dreams all died when you grew up and you'll never feel the same again
When you were young life seemed so free and you never had to worry
But now it's all just a distant memory and you can't reach it.

So pop that pill
And put another fake smile on your face
Just because the sun rises tomorrow
Doesn’t mean you’ll make it through today.

last night you gave me a kiss.
you didn't know it,
but i was awake when you did.
you were quiet, you were gonna let me sleep.
so i just laid there pretending to be.
you said some things,
you didn't know i could hear,
and the words "i love you"
never sounded so sincere.

So I said between my smiles and my regrets, "Don't let this be over."
But you put your hand over my mouth and whispered, "It already is."

Here's to the girls on their boards with bruises and scars
Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed from playin guitar
Here's to anyone who never quit when things got hard
You'll never let them say you'll never get that far

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

settle precious, i know what your going through.
ten minutes before you got here, i was gonna jump too.

When I refuse to take shit and speak up against it, I'm defined as being a bitch. But if being a bitch means I won't allow anyone to step all over me, then all I have to say is so be it.

Your clothes should be tight enough to show you're a woman and loose enough to show you're a lady.

I don't really think about anything too much.
I live in the present. I move on. I don't think
about what happened yesterday. If I think too
much, it kind of freaks me out.

our song is a slamming screen door sneakin' out late
tapping on your window
when you're on the phone and you talk real slow
cause it's late and your mama don't know
our song is the way you laugh
the first date, "man, i didn't kiss her, and i should have"
and when i got home...before i said amen
asking god if he could play it again

I`ve been thinking, it hurts me ;
thinking that the nights when we were drinking,
not they never got us anywhere

I`m a straight forward kinda girl.
if you ask me what i`m thinking, I`ll tell you.
No sugarcoating cause that`s not what life`s about,
it`s about dealing with the pain that comes along.
So if you`re going to tell me how you feel, don`t lie.
If I ask something, I want to know the truth, not the lie

But she can`t fake it hard
enough to please everyone.

life's too short
to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
believe that everything happens for a reason,
and if you get a chance, take it,
if it changes your life, then let it;
nobody said it'd be easy,
they just promised that it would be worth it.

"in your life you meet people. some you never think about again.
some you wonder what happened to them. there are some that
you wonder if they think about you. and then there are some you
wish you never had to think about again - but you do"
+ The Wonder Years

I'm sorry wont cut it for the rest of your life
get over yourself and say goodbye
I hope you realize you threw away
the best thing that ever happened to you

It's too much. I'm numb and I'm tired.
Too much has happened today.
I feel as if I'd been out in a pounding rain for 48 hours
without an umbrella or a coat.
I'm soaked to the skin in emotion.

she's constantly moving,
everytime she gets hurt she runs away,
meeting new people and seeing new places,
like that will make her forget.

When She's Silent
that's when you know something's wrong
cause she's always the one to get in trouble for
talking to her friends & telling secrets about the
girl sitting across from her & screamin i love you
in the halls. so when she's not talking, theres a problem.

I can't fill this hole in my life
the bottom is endlessly deep
you're the lucky one because you know what you want
but I wrestle demons alone while you sleep.

Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what i saw! I'm scared of what i did! Of who I am! Most of all i'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way that i feel when i'm with you! -Dirty Dancing

Tell me again that part how you didn't feel a thing
you know,that part about how you never actually really ever did

"Bullets cannot be recalled.
They cannot be uninvented.
But they can be taken out of the gun."
-Martin Amis

The end of paralysis, I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys it all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier

The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

you constantly make it impossible
to make conversation
keep us comatose but audible.

i don't wanna leave
i don't wanna stay
get away from me
stay the hell away
and i will give up my mind
and i will give my way
and i will pluck out my eyes
yes i will feel my way

sometimes you love someone so much
you just become numb to it.
cause if you really felt how much you love them,
it would kill you.

You think you know who your true friends are? wait until high school & see who's there for you when your ex boyfriend spreads rumors about you. Think you'll never do drugs? Wait until its right there in front of you & all your "friends"are doing it. Think you're tough? Wait until you say the wrong thing to the wrong person -see who backs down first. Think you're smart? Wait until you have an english project, science project, history test and a ten minute monologue due tomorrow cause you were absent for one day. Think you're cool? Wait until you're the only one that doesn't make the sports team -see how cool you are then. Think you're popular? Wait until your parents cant afford the new hollister jeans that everyone has. Think you'll never fall in love? Wait until a guy looks deep into your eyes and says he loves you. Think you'll never get your heart broken? Wait until that same guy that said he loved you is holding another girl behind your back. Think you're always going to be your own individual? Wait until one morning when you look in the mirror and realize you're just like everyone else.

it's not okay,
it's just how it is.

it's absurd, who you love and why,
and how you can't turn it off when you desperately want to.

and while you're out there getting where you're getting to
I hope you know someone loves you and wants the same things too

this is how it works
you're young until you're not
you love until you don't
you try until you can't
you laugh until you cry
you cry until you laugh
and everyone must breathe
until their dying breath

we wear our scarves just like a noose
but not cause we want eternal sleep
and though our parts are slightly used
new ones are slave labor you can keep

Just because something ends
does not mean it never should have happened.

it's not the big events that hurt the most,
but rather the smallest questionable shift in a tone
at the end of a spoken word that can plow
most deeply into the heart.

I know how it feels
to be on the edge of your bed,
your head buried in your hands,
wishing everything would end

I remember feeling like a ship
whose captain was too drunk to steer
and you watched as I was sinking
waving sadly from the pier

And sometimes it just hits me, out of nowhere. All of a sudden, this overwhelming sadness rushes over me and I get discouraged and I get upset, and I feel hopeless, sad and hurt, really hurt. And once again, I become numb to the world.

she self destructs but you wouldn't know;
she does it to know that she has control over something;
she does it because no one was there for her;
but she hides so well

There comes a time in your life when you have to
keep your pain a secret, you cant risk anyone finding
out, and not even your best friend can know, you have to fight it yourself,
you cant get any help from anyone, you cant risk it....
You cant risk getting even more hurt...

I guess when you break it down, I'm just so afraid.
Afraid of life. Death. Love. Hate. Friendship.
I'm paranoid, I'm terrified,
and I'm such a teenage calamity.
And what scares me the most -
I don't think anybody notices.

just because i don't say it, doesn't mean i don't think it,
just because you say it, doesn't mean you really mean it,
and just because you don't speak how you feel, doesn't mean I can't tell.

don't blame the world
for not understanding you
truth is, you don't even understand
yourself

I never let the actions of another make or break me.
I never let a single person shake me, because honestly,
I don't give a fuck who hates me.

things are getting to me. just how people are.
how they always expect you to be a certain way.
even your best friend.

got enemies?
good.
that means that you've stood up for something
in your life.

you can't go through life thinking everyone
you meet will one day let you down

I have noticed that if you look carefully at people's eyes the first five seconds they look at you, the truth of their feelings will shine through for just an instant before it flickers away.

Don't forget the songs
that made you cry
and the songs
that saved your life

Class is dead darling. It died with the dinosaurs.
It traded it's pearls and white wine
for a myspace & Corona
Welcome to the 21st century.
Would you like fries with that?

And i am turning into everything i hate, and you are graceful & absolutely fake

I sat in front of my television and cried.
cried because I lost you.cried because
every single promise you made every
single thing you said kept replaying in my
head and I wanted them all to come
true but because you weren't
mine, they never would.

you ever look at a picture and see a
stranger in the background?
it makes you wonder how many
strangers have pictures of you,
how many moments of other people's lives we've been in.
were we a part of a stranger's life when their
dream came true,
or were we there when their dreams died?
did we keep trying to get in as if we
were destined to be there,
or did the shot take us by surprise?
and not even know it.

it's weird how you go from
being strangers
to being friends
to being more than friends
to being practicaly strangers again

the biggest mistake you can make is to
drift apart from someone you once had
the time of your life with.

nothing compares to the
stomach aches you
get from laughing too hard
with your best friends.

through all the stupid fights,
we always looked past it.
and all the times you walked away,
you still always came back.
but I never thought, that one day,
you'd keep walking,
and not look back.

still the hardest lies to accept are the ones
we tell ourselves to cover up the truth

Respect your body,
you've only got one

i'm the kind of girl that
falls into her music
dives into a scene
and runs away from love

actions do speak louder
than words. but words are
the sparks that light the fire

Lately, i've been down on my knees.
not looking for a miracle just a reason to believe

every demon, every ghost from your past
&& every memory you've held back
follows you home;;nobody drinks alone

She actually pulled the trigger. And now shes gone.
She left no chance for apologies. She left no explanations.
And everyone who loved her cries now. Nobody understands.
All they feel is pain. Now they know how she had felt for so long.
And her? She will never get the chance to feel anything again. <Words_are_bullets

I want to give you
whatever you need.
What is it you need?

sometimes the hardest thing to let go of
is something you never really had.
what could've happened, didn't.
this is my goodbye to you.
i'll never forget the way you made me smile.

Isn't it funny how
day by day nothing changes,
but then when you look back,
everything is different.

It's an easy thing saying I love you to people that matter, you never know when you might lose them, or when they might lose you.
- one tree hill

There's a part of me that dies when
you turn away your eyes.
I'm alive but not inside.
And you know all I wanted was your love,
but you left me high and dry.
You're the part of me that died my darling.

And I will sing my song for you until you look me in the face,
press your lips against my own so I know just the way you taste.
and I will sing my song for you until the bombs wipe out the clouds,
I will stand against the ruins and I will scream your name out loud

did you think i called
just to hear you breathe?

Love doesn't mean holding onto feelings
and being devoted to someone
you can't have anyway.
It's wanting what's best for the other person,
even if that means you don't get what you want.
That's not to say that the pain shouldn't exist or
that it'll fade just like that,
but true love desires the happiness
of the one you love.

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally without
expecting anything in return.
That takes courage because we don't want to fall
on our faces or leave ourselves open to get hurt

seeing you today made me realize
just how far apart we've gotten
i hesitated too long to say hello
even though i should have
i wanted to see how you were doing
but we are strangers now
you don't know me anymore
maybe you don't even want to
but it's ok
things are just different now.

No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. Except there's an upside to freefalling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you.
-Grey's Anatomy

I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope...
-Grey's Anatomy

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
-Grey's Anatomy

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."
-Meredith, Grey's Anatomy

"The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams."
-Meredith, Grey's Anatomy

This is how you want it? Ill treat you like you treat me,
You'll be breaking down in no time. -loveonspeeddial

There's no hard feelings. No one to blame,
just two people, who don't feel the same
because of one guy she is afraid to trust anyone again.

Rooftop dancing in the summer heat
New car crash on a one way street
Strangers moving up to the fourth floor
Strange, now nobody knows me more